This week I learnt about the expensive underbelly of science. You have to pay to exhibit at a conference? I am unsure as to why I did not expect to have to pay to present research at conferences, but I recently submitted an abstract to the tune of £90. That was to submit the abstract (300 words), and if am to be accepted, it is in the £1000’s to go and present. This will give you an indication of how naive I am; I don’t understand why people do it! Other than to stay in a potentially exotic location doing a lot less work than usual, I don’t understand it. Secretly, I will not be annoyed if I don’t get accepted. Along with this I only had a weekend to produce the abstract, and as I have only just started, I have no data to write about. This made me very stressed for the first time since the start of the PhD, which goes against my current life philosophy.
The life philosophy. Going back 6 years I was working in a gym and just getting started in self-development. I fell into all the pitfalls, the bullshit motivational speakers (Tony Robbins et al.) who are selling you the dream one bestseller at a time. My mantra was essentially once I get x I will be happy, time after time I achieved my goals and was happy for approximately 1 day, no matter how big the achievement. It took me a long time to figure out that achievement hunting wasn’t the key to happiness. So now, my guiding principle is just to enjoy where I am at the moment and not just grind for future happiness.
P.S. I must have not done much this week as this is by far my shortest post. However, I can already start to see improvements in my writing.